Miscarriage

Today I went to the Radiologist to have an ultrasound to see if they could actually see the baby and figure out why I had the bleeding and all that. Well it isn't good news. Apparently the sac that they had seen in the beginning has gotten smaller than it was last week and they can't see a baby but just a bunch of fleshy material. So they are not sure exactly what happened but there is no baby. They had me come in to get my HCG tested again to see if it had gone down and they said that the goal was to get it to go back down to zero. Well the result came back and my HCG has gone up to 9000+. At first they said that I was going to have to either have an endometrial biopsy or schedule a D&C for next week. I told them that I had started bleeding a bit after the ultrasound so they said that I am probably miscarrying now so if I continue bleeding over the weekend I need to go in on Monday to get my HCG tested to see if it has gone down and if it hasn't then I will have to have a D&C sometime next week. They also called me in some pain meds and said that if the pain and bleeding get to bad I will need to go to the ER. So we are waiting it out to see what happens. 

  I had a really neat blessing that is really comforting me through this trial. I feel very close to my Savior and I know that we will be able to add to our family soon.

Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts.

HCG

Got my next HCG results back the other day and it's up to 7000+. We are keeping our fingers crossed that things keep working out. I have another ultrasound set for next Friday the 26th of February. Hopefully we will be able to see the baby heartbeat and all!!

Frustration!

So we went in for our ultrasound today and again we left full of frustration and not knowing what is going on. The Dr. could kind of see the baby but it wasn't clear and she couldn't see the baby's heartbeat so she says she can't say it's 100% a viable baby until she see the heartbeat. She also said that the baby was only measuring at 7 weeks but that she should still be able to see a heartbeat. She said that my HCG numbers don't look horrible and my odds of this working out aren't horrible but she just can't tell me 100% yet. Grrrr!!! I am super frustrated! I still have faith that this little one will pull through it is just really hard to wait any longer since we have waited for this for soooooo long!! The Dr. said that she would like to get a better view of the baby and that either her equipment doesn't work as well or she just doesn't know how to do it (yeah she said that) so she wants me to go to a radiologist and have an ultrasound with them and see what they can see. I am kind of thinking that I may just wait a couple of weeks before I go in for another ultrasound so we can see the baby better. I figure that if the baby is viable it will still be there in 2 weeks to look at and if not then my body will let it go. I am praying about this decision and hoping that I can make the right one. I will keep update the blog when I make my decision.

Heard from the Doctor

Saturday we heard from the Dr. about my HCG levels from the test I took on Friday. The results are my HCG went from 3600 to 5000 Wahoo!! Hopefully they will keep going up and things will go well. I am going in for another Ultrasound tomorrow so we can see if we can actually see the baby this time. Hopefully we will be able to see him/her and things will go smoothly from there. We are still waiting and praying!

Waiting and Praying

Tuesday I started bleeding pretty heavily so I called the Dr. in a panic and she told me not to worry and to go lay down and keep my blood pressure down. She told me to come in first thing in the morning. So I  went in and they did an ultrasound and she said that she could see the gestational sac but she couldn't see the baby. She said that it could be because I wasn't as far along as we thought or it might be a molar pregnancy. We are hoping and praying that it's just because the baby isn't as developed.
If it is molar I will have to have a D&C. I am pretty scared about that. She also said that she couldn't see what was causing the bleeding but she wasn't too worried about it and it stopped shortly after my appointment. I had my blood drawn to check my HCG levels and they are at 3600 which they said was good and I went in this morning (Friday) to get it tested again to see if it has gone up. So we are waiting for those results and are hoping to get them this afternoon. Then they will be more sure of what is going on and then I have a follow-up appointment the following Monday. I'm not sure if they will do another ultrasound at that point or not. I am really nervous but the more people I have talked about this too and the more I have read on the internet it has happened to many of them and they have still had a baby come
out of it. So we are hoping that this will be our result. We are in need of tons of prayers and are just hoping that this little miracle will come through for us!

The Test

I was a week late (which has happened to me many many times) so Russell told me that I should take a pregnancy test because in all the times past it would be negative and I would start the next day. So we went to the dollar store and picked up a test. I was too nervous to do it the next morning so on Monday February 1st 2010 I took the test. I took it and it didn't turn positive immediately so I threw it in the garbage and went to get in the shower. Just before I stepped in the shower (three minutes later) I felt like I should look at the test one more time. So I picked it up out of the garbage and to my surprise there was a faint line in the positive area. I was shocked!! I thought there is no way this could be positive. It must be a mistake. After I got out of the shower I called Russell and told him that the test might actually be positive and that we would need to buy another one to see. In the meantime I took a picture of it and emailed it to my sister to see what she thought. She immediately said it looked positive. I was freaking out!!! That night I didn't get a chance to go buy another test because we had company over. Tuesday I had a baby shower for my friend Natalie and afterward I went to the store and picked up two tests. I decided I would take one that night just to see what happened. So I did and it was positive again. The line was a little darker than the one that I had taken Monday morning. And since this was at night and the concentration wasn't as high as the first catch of the morning I was pretty sure I was pregnant. I decided to wait a few more days to take another test. That Thursday afternoon I started spotting a little bit. Just a couple of spots so I figured well there goes that idea I guess I am having a miscarriage or something. I was really worried. I didn't have anymore spotting the rest of the night and the next day I decided to just lay down all day and take it easy. I didn't spot again after that. So Friday morning I decided to take the test again to make sure it was still positive. I took the test that morning and it was still positive. The line was a bit darker than the test before so 3 positive tests later here we are!! Wahoo!! We are so excited and are praying our guts out that it sticks and we are able to have a healthy happy baby!!